Time passing as our call to action
Last night I decided to take a stroll down memory lane with a movie from the past and called on "Good Will Hunting". As is the case every time I've watched it, I smiled, laughed and cried. One of the powerful moments and reminders for me takes place between Ben Affleck and Matt Damon at the construction site where they work. With Damon's genius now fully apparent, Affleck begins to grill him about what he will do with his future. Damon is dismissive about taking any high-brow job and Affleck won't have any of his excuses.
"You don't owe it to yourself. You owe it to me. Because tomorrow I'm gonna wake up and I'll be 50." While Affleck is lamenting the fact he feels trapped in this station of life, for me its a broader wakeup call to be present and pushing myself in my life.
Having passed almost halfway through my 34th year in this life, I can remember my first apartment at 25, graduating college, graduating high school and riding the bus in elementary school. But I am none of those ages anymore. There are times I forget I am not 25, easiest example is late nights out where my body tells me the next morning its not 22 anymore ;)
With my planning/achieving personality type, I must aim to not stress about accomplishments and change to the point of not having fun but there is a vigilance and presence to call upon to make sure I do not wake up one day and find I am 50. Five plus years is a long time but soon enough, I will see the arrival of my 40th year. I do not dread its arrival. I only dread squandering my time between now and then.
Go Forth Boldly
"I'm a 40-year-old locked up in a 70-year-old body"
Harry Kuryla (my deceased maternal grandfather)